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The Truth Shall Set You Free . Fall 2003

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We can use this statement as a roadmap to generate courage for our next steps. Living in the truth is a continual process of awakening. To hear the deeper truth requires directness, an honest embrace of the bigger picture and a deep acceptance of the nature of change. It requires the cultivation of the heart as the voice of wisdom and compassion. We all occasionally trip over our own delusions and protective mechanisms. Freedom comes when we embrace truth from deep within our hearts.

Think about what happens when we are not being true. Our personality is guarded when we are hiding. This elevates our health risk, our joy moves to a place of calculation and we find ourselves stuck in repetitive thoughts. Compassion and healing feel out of reach as our pride and self-protection smother the spiritual flow. Our perception can become empty and meaningless, casting shadows into the world that feels dark and foreboding. This causes our spirit to separate into a place of fantasy and idealism, splitting off from reality. This creates an exaggerated light and dark.

For myself, I have realized that I have lived much of my life as 'Chicken Little' attempting to become 'Wonder Woman'. I attempted to avoid conflict and confrontation at all costs. I was determined to please all those around me without much consideration of the price to my deeper self. I lived in a great deal of fear most of the time. Because of my sensitivity, I was very aware of people's needs and motives. Anger paralyzed me; yet, I magnetized it toward myself like a tidal wave of aggression. This juxtaposition had one side of my nature hiding and accommodating, while my warrior side tried to protect by hardness and confrontation. I built a cover persona over the person who seemed always on edge. I was attempting to protect my lack of self-esteem and feelings of emptiness. Talk about inner conflict! I was pushed into the dark caves of self-delusion by this fear-aggression combo. Within me, I knew that if any spiritual progress were to unfold, I would need a meltdown of my ego projections and a new relationship with my emotions. My real work was about to begin. My search for the truth was literally my life saving tool.

My first agreement was to tell the truth to myself. I started with simple things. I had to own how often I was willing to lie to myself. I was learning, first hand, how my family environment and the culture itself trained me in self-deception. I grew up with "let's pretend and go numb" and I was good at it. I was amazed to discover that as soon as I realized the deeper truths from which I was hiding, the outside world seemed to know it already. It was as if the truth itself created a field of awareness that did not need words to be communicated. The truth was bigger than my personal recognition. This caught my attention. I began to understand integrity on another level; when people are living in their truth, you can actually feel it. Truth does speak louder than words.

Lesson Two: Do reality checks and be as real as possible. Stay grounded.


I noticed that my body does not lie. When I withheld the truth, I could feel the pressure rise, experiencing headaches and sore muscles. When I was not true to myself, I would find that projects would become chaotic and I was more vulnerable to negative patterns. Without truth, there was no clear core of reality and my world would start to disintegrate. It would often take that kind of pressure on my ego to get me to be honest with my feelings and acknowledge my limitations. Each time I would lose my center, I would gain a deeper understanding of "The Truth shall Prevail."

Be true to yourself is a very powerful principle. It acts like an elixir, meant to cleanse and purify consciousness daily. The strength it provided helped me learn how to manage and eventually eliminate most fears and temper the aggression that colored my words when I was hiding. As this experiment continued, I felt an uncovering of power greater than any concept could convey. I discovered the power of the Truth Field, a body of consciousness that is generated by staying consciously connected to spirit while living honestly in a loving way. This spiritual field had a centering effect, making myself and the people around me more clear and open to their potential. The Truth Field generated Truth. If there is a power of liberation capable of transforming our world, the Truth field will be a central part of the equation. Learning how to hold this power is a balance between an art and a science.

Our intention is to share these teachings now.

When we are capable of learning how to use them, every emotion becomes a tool to help in our quest for liberation.
I realized that every emotion is a tool to bring me closer to the truth. The challenge is to learn how to use each emotion. When my darkness spoke, it said things that my conscious mind was not allowed to say. At the core of every emotion lay aspects of the truth. Anger becomes a tool for discernment; it burns away the ignorance that creates illusion. Confusion acknowledges when I am caught between belief systems and unable to embrace the new world; confusion creates a protective veil to help me adjust gradually to change. Resentment tells me when I am not taking care of myself and can erupt into guilt and blame. The old bitter, blaming voice growls, wanting to be taken care of but the state itself does not know how to release control and be receptive to being supported. If I can listen as a loving interpreter, which is often hard to do with the dark side, I can begin to take responsibility to learn how to be nurtured in a healthy way.

I was not taught how to use my emotions as tools, nor shown how to listen for the truth. I spent a great amount of time being right and protective. I discovered that emotions contain tremendous power. I have accepted that I needed to subdue these emotional currents until I learned to utilize the gifts that they bring. I moved beyond the old structures of 'right and wrong'. I found that I was capable of experiencing love and empowerment with every emotion when I approached it with respect. When directed by truth and wisdom, the emotional body becomes an energy reservoir that opens the deep currents necessary for awakening. I am now more able to experience living spirit and realize the true power of unconditional love.

Lesson three: Reveal my hidden nature to the light.

Move with emotional currents that bring deeper truth.

I have found that everything that I ask for from the outside world, like love and respect, must first be cultivated from my higher self, which makes a space available for receiving. If I do not prepare the space within, it is almost impossible to get love and respect from the outside world. This awareness taught me to be grateful to my dark voices, even when they are difficult. By bringing this message into my heart, I have found solutions that were not available before. The light of my spirit has resources not found in my pain.

Use this time to Dance in the Light and claim your true nature.

When we commit to the truth, it gives us the courage to face whatever is in front of us. With practice, we are able to penetrate our experience and gain wisdom. The work ahead requires that we learn how to generate Truth Fields. Truth brings strong resonance to our nature, allowing us to manifest faster and with more ease. Our intuition sharpens, the world becomes clear. As we use our emotions as empowerment tools, a new foundation is established. Through this process, we gain access to parts of our consciousness that we only imagined.

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